One Love: A Millennial’s Journey to Pan Africanism

Like men we’ll face the murderous, cowardly pack,

Pressed to the wall, dying, but fighting back!

Like men we’ll face the murderous, cowardly pack,

Pressed to the wall, dying, but fighting back!

Claude McKay


This is a post about my ongoing journey to learn about Pan Africanism through journals, articles, literature, and videos for an African American Literature class that I am taking. I am by no means an expert in the study but I hope you all enjoy my findings and journey as much as I am. If at anytime I present false or off information please let me know, I am definitely open to correction. Some one else may be struggling in the same areas.

Reach one teach one!

To kick this off, I’d like to give a little insight to what lead me to studying Pan Africanism.

I’d spent 19 years in St. Louis Missouri living in either predominately African American or Caucasian areas as I glided between the private and public school systems. If there were any people in my life at that were of African or Caribbean origin at that point of time, I hadn’t known about it. My family, which migrated from Mississippi to STL during the great migration is large, close knit, and very connected to the baptist church.

Much of southern African American culture and prominence stemmed from the community and local government connections made through black church organizations throughout American history. If you would like to know more information about the rise and importance of churches in the south here’s an article written by the Associate Professor of Religious Studies at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill in 2001. This article breaks the information down better than I ever could.

I say all of this to emphasize that for populations affected by the generational traumas of slavery, Jim Crow, segregation, the Tuskegee Syphilis study, the Massacre of Black Wall Street and plenty of other atrocities, many find trusting sources outside of the community . . . daunting. In a city like St. Louis with the demographics placing African Americans at 48%, Caucasians at 46%, Asian Americans at 3 % and all other races around a whopping collective of 2%, the focus of the an individuals world could seem fairly . . .

But I digress, this isn’t a post about the racial tension of my home town so stick with me, I promise all of this will circle back to Pan Africanism.

In 2011 I did a thing that would change my life forever.

I joined the military.

Stationed on LSD 49 USS Harpers Ferry (follow the link to a pretty cool video of the ship I lived on for about 4 years), I would go on to meet people of all ages, races, and ethnicities. But for the purpose of this post, I am specifically referring to the friends that I made from the different countries in Africa and the Caribbeans. These friends gave me something that I had never known was missing in my life; an understanding that across the African diaspora we are all more similar than we are different.

I began my African American literature class with the intention of understanding some of those old military friends better. After traveling overseas myself and understanding what it felt like to be an African American in another country, I wanted to know what it was like for them to be in this country (the US) that had so many people that look like them but mostly have no knowledge about their heritage. I wanted to know if moving to this country and seeing how racially divided and economically/systemically disproportionate we were affected their opinions of African Americans in any way.

What I found was quite the opposite.

In this class I have found inspiration from great African American writers to name a few Ida B. Wells, Toni Morrison, James Baldwin, Nikki Giovanni and W.E.B. Dubois. The writer that related the most to my inquisition and who introduced me to the notion of connecting the diaspora was a Jamaican native Harlem Renaissance poet named Claude Mckay.

Follow this link for more info about this poet!!! (It’s a video)

If you don’t know who he is don’t worry, it isn’t your fault! He, like so many of America’s most affluent and prominent black academics, he never made it to your history books.

Why was He so Important?

Remember how I mentioned my mission to find this narrative of immigrants from the African diaspora voicing their opinions about the lives of the American people? I read this poem of his from 1919 and it changed everything:

If we must die—let it not be like hogs
Hunted and penned in an inglorious spot,
While round us bark the mad and hungry dogs,
Making their mock at our accursed lot.
If we must die—oh, let us nobly die,
So that our precious blood may not be shed
In vain; then even the monsters we defy
Shall be constrained to honor us though dead!
Oh, Kinsmen! We must meet the common foe;
Though far outnumbered, let us show us brave,
And for their thousand blows deal one deathblow!
What though before us lies the open grave?
Like men we’ll face the murderous, cowardly pack,
Pressed to the wall, dying, but fighting back!

After I finished the last line, I found myself yearning for more. Still, I am perpetually drawn back to his poem. Like a new shiny piece of jewelry, I have a hard time leaving it to sit in waiting as I struggle to find reasons to casually bring it up, wanting and just waiting to show it off to someone else.

Instead I am often compelled to take it out just to admire it, to try it on and envision myself wearing it. In fact, I have spent a considerable amount of time both mulling over the events surrounding its creation and connecting it to events surrounding African American’s cries for justice today, some 100 years later.

But again I digress, this is not a post about racial tensions in America.

Getting back to the point, Mckay did not distinguish himself from any African American in this poem. In fact, If We Must Die was one of the first pieces of writing that would kick off the African American awakening known as the Harlem Renaissance. My gears shifted after learning all I could about him. I now wanted to find more people like him. People who found a connection with the struggle, who saw it all and didn’t distance themselves from it but instead saw a pattern in the pain and destruction in other parts of the African descendant populations of the world.

At this point of time I had not yet known what Pan Africanism was but as I searched for other scholars, writers, artists, and activists that shared this common urge to connect across the diaspora, the term started to pop up more and more.

What is Pan Africanism?

According to an article from the New York Public Library

Pan-Africanism represents the complexities of black political and intellectual thought over two hundred years. What constitutes Pan-Africanism, what one might include in a Pan-African movement often changes according to whether the focus is on politics, ideology, organizations, or culture. Pan-Africanism actually reflects a range of political views. At a basic level, it is a belief that African peoples, both on the African continent and in the Diaspora, share not merely a common history, but a common destiny. This sense of interconnected pasts and futures has taken many forms, especially in the creation of political institutions.

Minkah Makalani – Rutgers University

Since discovering Pan Africanism I have done sooooooo much research on the subject matter that I don’t really think it would be fair to try to condense it under the umbrella of this post. I’m going to write at least one more post to visit what I have learned about it and list my pros and cons.

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Stay blessed all and I hope to see you guys soon!

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RAW: Opportunities Made for Artists by Artists

To kick off the Tenacity series, I attended the annual RAW art show Magnify.

And wow!

It was an outstanding time!

Originated in 2005, the RAW Art Organization, a promotional platform that prides themselves on being made for artists by artists, showcases indie creatives in art, film, fashion, music, performing arts, hair, makeup, and photography. The RAW Artist Organization operates in over 65 cities across the US, Australia, Canada, and the UK.

To find an event in a city near you please visit

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The First Impression

“I recognized from the way everyone was dressed heading towards the entrance that this was going to be a real treat.” My boyfriend David describes in our post-interview. We stood in line with patrons clad in dress suits, casual wear, tribal wraps, and costumes. People from all walks of life met at the venue hoping to come across a piece of art that they would not be able to leave without.

Inside, every artist had their own station where they displayed their talents. Most of the art displayed that night was also posted on the website. Anxious patrons like myself who had bought their tickets in advance were gifted plenty of time to run to the website, sneaking prospective peaks at pieces while anticipating the event. So accordingly, I spent most of the first hour at the event itching to meet the artists of my favorite paintings. As the budding journalist that I am, I came prepared with questions and to my surprise, most of the artists were kind and receptive.

As I walked around the venue gawking at beautiful paintings and pictures, and fashion (Oh My!) I found a few creations that required more context. The interviews were recorded on the memo app on my cell (which was surprisingly clear.) but I have not found an app that will allow me to cut out all of my stuttering, fumbling, hot messes yet so I will spare you all from that…  This time.

Dose of Dopeness

One of my favorite artists of the night was Dose of Dopeness (Vernon Strain). I was drawn to his art station by his pieces featuring African American women depicted as goddess figures and queens. I admired his ability to capture the beauty of the African American culture in a vibrant and colorful manner.


(Dose of Dopeness’s holds a piece in progress to show his signature “Melanin Drip” which he uses to portray having  melanin being poured onto the people in his drawings.)

As a self-taught artist that has been working at this craft since the age of three, he draws inspiration from the people, music, and emotions surrounding him.

ME: How do you use music to draw inspiration for your drawings?

VS: Whatever the feeling is in a song, it usually sparks an idea for a piece. I just roll with it and honestly, I just black out and it creates itself.

ME: I saw on your page that you’re from Columbus, OH. Do you travel to do the events or do you live in Atlanta now? Have you seen a difference in the art cultures between the two states?

VS: I still live in Columbus but I will travel almost anywhere to get my art seen. The cultures are very different. Art in Atlanta is more of a collective and community-oriented scene where Columbus artists are more supportive of only those they know or are within their circle. In regards to style, there’re artists of all calibers in both cities that produce insanely awesome work.

To find more information about Dose of Dopeness please visit

Caitlin “KK” Nixon.

Another artist that I had the pleasure of meeting and interviewing was Caitlin “KK” Nixon. Like myself, she is not a native of Atlanta, GA. She moved from Birmingham Alabama for college and also to find a home for her unique style of work.


She has a business named Hell is a Place which takes first world civil and political issues and depicts them in macabre and humorous ways.

During our interview, I was able to learn a bit about her as an artist and a few ways she maneuvers through the industry. One portion of the culture that I had not given much thought before starting this interview was collaborations. Caitlin and I spoke indepthly about how collaborations in the community can broaden the skill set of an artist and open up opportunities for exposure.

ME: How have you seen collaborations play a part in the exposure of your work both positively and negatively?

CN: Collaboration plays a huge part in one’s exposure, and I’ve used it a ton to push and promote myself. The pluses are vast, from being able to be apart of those opportunities that you would of otherwise not of had, to learning new skills and techniques that you can apply to your own projects. However, of course, you can’t have good without bad, and I’ve seen my fair share of failed partnerships that ran risks of portraying negative ideals about one’s personality or work to jobs that just failed.

To find more information about Caitlin “KK” Nixon please visit

The night at Magnify was definitely one to remember! The welcoming atmosphere, live performances, and amazing art sent me out of the door with my head spinning and body buzzing with excitement. Every creator and performer gave one hundred and ten percent to all of us in attendance and it was received with more support than I ever would have imagined. I will definitely be attending next year!

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4 Natural Ways to Beat an Itchy Scalp

Believe me, I have been through the times when it seemed like the itching would never end. The first few months of locking were definitely the worst of times. Every time I started to itch I would just grease or wash in hopes of finding some sort of relief. Let me tell you, nothing is worse than changing your oil and shampoo just to continue the itchy struggle. I have found that the first step to beating an itchy scalp is discovering the reason why it is happening. If you are itchy, don’t worry.  Here are four reasons you might feel this way and natural, affordable ways to rectify the itch. Remember, these are ways that have gotten me over the hump, but everyone’s scalp is different. All of my advice stems from having curly/coarse hair. If these solutions do not work for you feel free to tweak them to your liking. Listen to your scalp!

1. Dry Scalp

Over Washing

Those of you that have read my post about my dreadlock journey know that I suffered from dry scalp for way too long in the second year of my journey. After my big chop, I got accustomed to washing my TWA ( Teeny Weeny Afro) once a week. This is fine with a TWA because it has the luxury of being moisturized and brushed/combed. Locs are meant to be washed, oiled, and essentially . . . Left alone. Over washing stripped my scalp of it’s natural oils and for a while, I struggled to find a balance with washing and oiling because of my mistake.


Make sure that the shampoo is sulfate free.  Sodium Lauryl Sulfate (SLS) and Sodium Laureth Sulphate (SLES) are found in most shampoos from department/ drug stores. These ingredients can strip the moisture right out of your hair.

The solution

Solving this problem is easy. Gradually space out your washdays. Make the next washday a week in a half later, then the next time two weeks.

There are a ton of natural oils that will help to regain the moisture. Some of my favorites are Castor Oil, Jojoba Oil, Vitamin E Oil, and Pimento Oil. Rose water is also fantastic for everyday use.

2. Not Washing Enough

I know that there are plenty of people advising dreadlock wearers to wash their hair about once a year (I’m exaggerating for a dramatic effect.) but under washing could be a cause itching and other problems. Because we do not brush our hair, there is an extremely high probability that we will experience build up. This is all of the dirt, dust, oil, and shampoo/conditioner resin that sticks to your scalp during the periods between wash days. This needs to be washed out routinely or a yeast-like fungus called Malassezia/ Pityrosporum could begin to grow on your scalp. This is very very itchy, flakes like dandruff, and fills your hair follicles with puss. Some cases of extreme under washing have also lead to alopecia.

The solution

This solution is a little more difficult than you’d think it would be. In order to eliminate the itchiness,  find the sweet spot between wash days. This may not be the same time frame as other friends and family members. Begin with the wash routine used before locking. If it is to often space it out gradually. If it is not enough, try washing more often.


3. Clogged Pores

With locs, hair lotions and thick moisturizers are virtually obsolete. I have heard of others diluting hair lotion and moisturizers with water, but to be honest. . . It has not been a necessity for me.  Remember that most of us are not brushing our hair anymore, so the thick moisturizer is just sitting on the scalp collecting dirt and trapping dead skin. This will make the scalp more prone to itching. ( This was a huge problem for me as I transitioned from loose natural hair to dreadlocks.)

I have stopped using conditioner for this reason. Although many loc wearers still do, I find that my scalp is happier without.

4. Season Changing

Season changes can be a big concern for allergies. Our scalp is not immune to them. Washing and oiling routines may have to change with the weather. If your skin dries out more in the summer, you do not have to force the routine that worked in the winter and spring. Be flexible. I personally use more rose water and castor oil in the summer months than I do at any other time.

The Solution

This took a very long time for me to discover. Paying close attention to our scalp during the seasons changing will assist with our readiness to take action.

We all have faced itchiness from time to time. Being aware of the causes are the first steps to ensuring that it is not a continuous cycle. We all want healthy happy locs. I hope that the information here has been helpful. For any questions or to share tips and tricks, you can find me on

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My Dreadlock Journey : The Beginning

As you read in the title, today I will be sharing the beginning of my loc journey. Some of the information that I give here can be used in your own journey but keep in mind that I am not a loctition or a professional. Feel free to use any of my tips as a guide but remember that everyones hair and scalp are a little different, so what works for me. . . Someone else may have to tweak to their comfortability. Now . . . lets get to the good stuff.

For as long I can remember I have had a fascination with dreadlocks. Family members and acquaintances would sport them on and off and I would berate them with questions until I got on their last nerve.

After contemplating for yeeeeears, starting my first loc journey, then promptly cutting the journey short because I stared with permed hair. (It was a hot mess. . . and done in a beauty shop that told me it was a good idea!) I big chopped in December of 2014 and spent a year getting acquainted with my hair texture.


February 2015, after leaving the military I began my loc journey.


I had never done two strand twists before, and I had never retwisted dreadlocks but I was determined to make it work. The first few times I washed my hair ( I was still washing once a week.) Some of the twists came down all together and I would have to restyle my hair all over again. After a few trial and error washdays I found a method that would help me keep my locs intact without retwisting so often.

I stayed optimistic.

Here’ s a video I found that is the closest to the technique I used.


I had some blow back from family and friends in the beginning. I’ve always done my own hair and like I mentioned before, I had absolutely no experience, so sometimes my locs did not look as well put together as some of them may have liked.


But I kept pushing forward anyway. There is no cheat to get out of this stage of the loc process. Some retwist more often so they wont have to see so much of the frizz but be carful with the twisting because it can thin your hair.

I washed once a week and retwisted twice a month for the first six month of my journey. Although, my hair still loc’d in about five months, I would not recommend this.  I spent the entire next year combatting dry scalp and flaking because I washed so much. Now I wash about twice a month and retwist every six to eight weeks. This regimen is not ideal for starter locs, but as time progresses your wash and twisting routine will change organically with your schedule and scalp needs.

I only use coconut oil, Jamaican Black Castor oil, and water to retwist, but I will add Eco Gel if I am going to an event and I want them to look really tight. I have done this pretty much the entire time. The only exception to my current routine was when I started my two strands. At that time I used the Jamaican Mango and Lime Locking gel.

If you are just starting your journey, I would personally like to thank you for taking the time to read my story. I hope that I have been able to help in some way. If you have any questions about loc’ing or if you just want to swap stories, you can find me on

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5 Things to Consider Before Starting Your Locs


Four years ago, I pulled together the courage to start a journey that would change the way that I saw the world forever. I say courage because I had been contemplating it for years. I started with two strand twists and I have been retwisting and styling my locs on my own, never looking back. Since the beginning, my babies (my dreadlocks) and I have been through plenty of ups and downs. (I do not want anyone to think that this has been a cakewalk.)


This is me about 6 months in.

If you’re here because you’re thinking about starting your loc journey, I would like to start out by saying, that you are already on the right path. Always research, research, research before you make big decisions.

While I have absolutely no doubts about my decision to start my loc journey, there are a few things that I wish someone would have told me before I started. What I am listing below are tips that I have from managing my own hair for the past three years. I am not a loctition or a professional. Feel free to use any of my tips as a guide but remember that everyone’s hair and scalp are a little different, so what works for me. . . Someone else may have to tweak to their comfortability. Now . . . let’s get to the good stuff.



I was not immune to this. Like many, when I started my locs I had an image in mind that I thought they would look like. I followed a few Instagram pages of women who had beautiful very small dreadlocks and I just knew that mine would be just as full and vibrant as theirs. I love where mine are but I had to learn the hard way that hair textures are the determining factor in the size and volume of dreadlocks. However. . . you will have more luck molding them to the size you like if you manage them on your own.



The photo on the top 6-8 months photo on the bottom one year.

Around the three month mark your dreads enter a phase called budding. During this time they swell and become very fuzzy. (Do not be discouraged, this phase is over before you know it.) Just remember to keep them moisturized, they will keep growing and being happy. After the budding phase, your dreads move into the Adult phase. That started happening around my first locversary (loc anniversary). I had started with my two strands so small that by the time my locs started shrinking, I had to begin merging a few of them together.

3. Low Maintenance Does Not Mean No Maintenance!


Sometimes dreadlocks seem so easy to maintain that some forget that they need love. Like plants, they need to be watered regularly. Yes . . .they actually NEED water. Before you use your oils be sure to give them a quick spray of water. I like to use one of the small spray bottles from Walmart, I usually infuse Jamaican Black Castor oil, and Vitamin E oil so I can spray and go in the mornings. My scalp loves it!

I know that there are always whispers about not washing your hair for months when you have dreadlocks but that is not actually a necessity. As long as there is regular, thorough moisturizing, once or twice a month wash days won’t hurt.

4. There Will Be Judgement

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For the first three months of my journey strangers would just stare at me, even some of the people closest to my life were asking if I was going to take my two strands down anytime soon. Nobody could really tell that I had a method to my madness. But I digress, I started my journey during a tremendously difficult time in my life. In a world where I could not control much, it felt incredibly rewarding to pour so much energy into myself. I found confidence in knowing that I had started something that would be rewarding, now my time and efforts have paid off. If you decide to start locking your hair just know that there will be haters and there will be lovers. Don’t sweat the petty things.

5. The Loc Fam

Now that we’ve talked about the haters let’s talk about the lovers. The dreadlock community is the best community to be a part of. Most are willing to stop and answer questions for newcomers. We are always happy to see each other and to give compliments and words of encouragement. I am personally always open to answer questions.

I hope this helps anyone thinking about starting dreadlocks. It really is a fun and challenging journey.